Have you every wondered what you are doing right when everything seems to going wrong?  Sigh. Well, smiling through lessons isn’t always fun or easy to do. And the lessons do keep me on my toes. It is interesting how the doors close and open at the same time.

This last week a pattern I really was hoping was dissolved came back in my face and yep, I was thrown a bit by it. It was a little bit of integrity by someone else was out of sic. Mine. Yet, all is in perfect timing and place. So I stop myself and think for a moment how or what I thought to create this again. Hmm. It is that detachment of the possibility that gets to me. Like I am off in some way, and I am still being center as best I can. My heart is pulsating from the events of the last few weeks.

That shift of energy and I know that Saturn and Pluto are a part of this game or the pattern. What pattern?  Someone offers to help, may even start to help and then throws it back on me to finish or they just doesn’t follow through. Basically changes their mind. How many times have I changed my mind about doing my life purpose or attempts to avoid it altogether.  Friends are great at giving me advice and I do listen. I do appreciate the information. Really I do, knowing their hearts, the situation and the reality of life…that game.

Breathing here… A new opportunity is opening up here yet I am feeling that excitement or anxiety. Nope that isn’t it… I am pissed at this person for her doing this to me, after I followed through with her and now this. Yes, I know. I need to talk to her about this. She will not like it and she is very sensitive about this. Oh well.

In truth, the lesson for me is that I am complete and whole with no separation. It is that mirror of me not following through with myself. It is an attitude adjustment. I can only look within and see that magic that dwells deeply in me. It is that inner strength that has kept me going through with a bright smile. Life has a brilliant key to it. It is the understanding of the silence. The blessing of understanding the human part of this world. To step back for a moment from the entanglements of the beautiful dream and breathe in that elixir of love. Everything is exactly as it is to be. I created each moment here and I am really good at this.

Good at seeing the pattern, the solution and the steps. It is that dance for me to staying focused on just one thing to completion when I have lots of patterns, solutions and steps in my head at once. Beautiful to feel that blissful hugs I give myself with a smile and a laugh.

The other day I was chatting with a friend about my branding. My name is now a brand. He thought he had offended me. Far from it. I did find this amusing with the idea and knowledge of the true worth of labels. How much people place on it. I accept this with humor or it will be a bit overwhelming for me, or maybe I am a bit overwhelmed. Though I now have a better understand of another friend of mine who is a multi-millionaire. He has made it through hard work, connections and his name is a “brand” too. Some thing we can laugh about in truth. I have felt his energy around me lately. I haven’t for a while till now. He is supportive through this time of transition and appreciation goes both ways. He walked away out of the number of obligations he had and needing to focus on those things. I get it now. He has been one of my best teachers and I appreciate his support. People come and go. He knew my path and with a touch of his hands on my face and smirk on his face…”seeing you when you’re famous” were some of the last words he said as he left. I smile now and trust myself a bit more. I didn’t then. I wasn’t too happy with him. Now I got a clue of his brilliance and the trueness of his friendship with me. A gentle kick in my ass and a kiss on the forehead. Beautifully done.

These friends of mine are such great people and a perfect reflection of what I need now. That brilliance in them shines. I am grateful for their honesty. Those four agreements are at play and I breathe in deep and see this pattern is remaining until I do my homework and change my attitude in the right perspective. Get the work done right this time. Focus and let go and be true to the road. Damn, I love this stuff. I knew the truth of things… how this game is played…with the Truth and that human perception at play. It is up to the individual to develop the plan and opportunities…as the wise man, Einstein states.

Trust. And don’t argue. Those arguments just become barriers. Put aside all your knowledge. That knowledge is not going to help. Only being helps, not knowledge; knowledge pretends, promises, but never delivers the goods. So put all knowledge aside. That means to put the whole mind aside, to let the heart function at the optimum. And you will not go empty-handed I would not like you to go empty-handed.

I am ready — you be ready! ~Osho

The most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious.
It is the source of all true art and science.” ~ Albert Einstein

Within the shadows of mystery and magic, passions gather in the boldness and hidden yearnings of the heart. The soul speaks in subtle and passive ways at times. Being aware of the dancing murmurings of the soul is part of the spiritual journey to connect to the depth of you. The paradox of Light and Dark, Yin and Yang…for that much desired balance.The Shadow dance within each of us and it is truly blessings to dive in to meet and understand the “underbelly” of self. How can one understand who their true self without doing these journeys into the depths of their passions obscured from sight? All forms of passions; Passions meaning the yearning and leanings of the heart are what the journey is about…that connection to the wholeness of you and the oneness of all.My journey of the depths of my soul started many a moon ago, though consciously in 2001 with the connection to a shaman. The Shaman’s journey is not always an easy one for the total surrender of all to the higher power. I do mean Totality of the Soul, Heart, Mind and Body. It teaches the trust within oneself. Shamans have the power, wisdom and abilities to play with in all realms with a grace.I connected strongly with the animal realm as guides and to this day, still feel a deepening connection with their wisdoms and protection. Like the dogs I have had in my life, each were Masters of protection, loyalty and unconditional love. Trust and respect between us was a special bond that I carry over into my other relationships. You can still feel their energies and spirits around me though the last one passed of the rainbow bridge in June, 2009. Many people ask me how they are even known there are gone physically. Stone is very present with me now. He is the protector within relationships, letting me know to be more aware of relationships coming in or manifesting now.Other energies are skunk (respect, self-respect), Mouse (details), Otter (Feminine); Swan (Trusting Grace); Horse (Power) for example. They will show themselves through animal medicine cards, physically in form or photography or in dreams, vision as well.For the Shadow work, Bat, Raven and/or Bear are the animal totems to call upon. They will carry you into the depths of your soul and see what is waiting for you in your dreams. Raven is the guardian of the Darkness, showing your deepest fears and living through them or calling your fears to come forward in the physical to move past them. Not the easiest to do, though I did it and stronger for it. Through Raven, I faced my own death and feel the magic in releasing the physical form into the Great Void.In the Great Void, Bear who is known for hibernation, takes you to see the great potentials and secrets you hide from yourself and others. Allowing you to see the truth you are concealing from your consciousness.
Bat is transformation, going through the shifts from the unconscious into the awareness of consciousness and living through that awareness and grace.

If you have an interest in learning more about animals, contact me for an animal reading. Or check out the work of Ted Andrews’ Animals Speak and Animal Wise. Brilliant books and Tarot Cards to start your Shadow work. Enjoy the wholeness that you truly are.

Magic Powers Unfold within Your Dreams by Marcome

The worlds are collapsing now. The worlds of the conscious and unconscious minds are slowly becoming into a space through the evolutionary shifting to be one with the humanity. True essences and presences are reflecting more and more all the deeper levels of the unconscious of each of us… the light and shadow. Through revealing the shadow aspects of the being… the soul is freed to become the true essence of Self: The authentic real you. Accepting and allowing both sides to exist without condemning oneself with these aspects of Self. The sides have equal importance and reflect the eons of lives you have lived.

The process is intense, powerful and revealing of the layers of denial we have build up… the false realities that we made truth. Now with this process in full swing, the levels of false memories are coming to the surface and the truth of what really happen appears. The story exposed and unfolds before you to deal with the aftermath of what you created for yourself. Damn, you are such a great storyteller. That Great Pretender. Come out and dance now. Look and see what you have truly created.

Now because of the stories and the ways you have created your life… in many ways…it is your truth now… though only in your world. It is now in this process we learn to be apart of humanity and stop the story…taking the responsibility of the creation to recreate the real truth of what we are looking for and desiring to have in this experience of humanity. Divine is alive in well deep within you. It is only you that can ask for the divine to come forth to help you through your prayers and sincerity of the heart. Soon the heart brings your dreams forward as the dramas drop back into the past and remain there unless you cling on to what you had created. Now it will take time to reclaim your power and the energies of this place are funky now…with all the stories and truths coming out. Keep breathing, folks. Continue to connect with your heart and ground yourself. And in time, manifestation will be an easier process for you to have. I am now beginning my life over in a way. Clearing and understanding that the process will continue…gain a depth of the soul after the many lifetimes of its stories told again and again… Okay…think of it this way… how many times has the Bible been read? That is just a fraction of the depths of your own storytelling. Immensity to the nth degree. So don’t think this process is coming to an end. I can’t tell you have many times I am seeing the same story in a new form has come back into my life. Each time it is like a new bird flying by… the emotional feelings to it lessen each time. I am getting so good at seeing and recognizing which one it coming up this time. It is pretty funny and amusing and that is what you need to do… See the humor at this “story” in the situation. If you keep having the same type of relationship… HELLO… what are you missing here? What aren’t you changing in yourself to attract the same…Or what are you gaining through the same experiences? What piece are you missing to continue on this same path? Or are you simply going a little deeper into the scenario?

If you are looking for assistance with the process, I am a certified intuitive life coach and I can assist you in finding your truth and ease the process with support and humor.

Clouds gathered and the winds blow as I now sat still and read from the Interior Castle by Saint Therese of Avila.  Such passion and devotion in her words, with truth reigning in the love she knows of the Beloved. I asked this morning for more understanding of direction and guided to read.

Write, Child… It is time for you to write and publish your words. Your wisdoms hold magic and it is time to release such powers out to the world. Healing is present and being made through those words of your experiences.

My heart lingers still in that dance… in watching the swaying and movement. The music moves my soul to planes of sweetness and passion that aren’t easily explained, yet I am to do so. My heart opens with a joy, peace and bliss. I smile. It stops me with this feeling of total devotion of Spirit’s dreams and wishes for my travel.

Illusions are gone now, yet I know what is to be. I hear the secrets whispers in the night of the Angels and the wise elders who bless me with their guidance. It is their words I write.  I sit in awe as the sun breaks through the clouds to reveal more light and more of the dance. More of the joy and love is swaying within me. Movement of the day, of this moment as my dog enters asking for some of my time. She looks out the window and sighs. This day calls her out and me as well. I end this with the sight of a rabbit…a energy of knowing the right move to made at the right time. It is time for me to move forward in my life. The center of my heart guides me. My gratitude continues. Bless you.

In the last few weeks the shifting tides have come and taking me to a different place of realizing the world I have created for myself in all areas of my life. The simple truth of who I am being vs. the person I truly am mixed and dances in front of me… like a movie that I can rewrite the script due to the simple fact that I am co-creating this adventure as each moment begins.

I have revisited past relationships to clear the issues in them by speaking my mind. Did this change anything within this issue? Yea, it really did let me know the strength of my love for this man and how little he really cared for me. I was a convenience. Ouch. Not really that hurtful. I am a giver. Now I am seeing how much I am really giving away and how much I am letting others control my actions out of what? Wanting to be loved? I love myself. I appreciate the little things I do to have a good fun-filled life. Do I do all I really want to do? Nope. What do I say this? I am a bit of a procrastinator. Waiting for that magic inspiration. It does happen though it has been fleeting. I ask Spirit for more and longer duration. In time… ha ha. I am tired. I find myself tired of this lifetime. I look at all that I am doing and feel let down by the outcome. I am looking for the balance for me and the energy power I possess. I am a powerful being of Light. I am here to help others get through the day…making those magic inspiration moments happen for them. Yea…I wonder “when is it my turn?” Funny thing is I met a man… my perfect mirror…recently. What a joy and pain in the butt. There are moments that are so sweet with him. Pure heaven on earth…then reality comes back. These special moments are what keep me in touch with him, knowing that the pains are the growing gestures we are sharing. Unconditional love…pure and simple. We are present for each other with an unspoken words of powerful magic… love, faith and trust. A deep friendship of many lifetimes. Faith in humanity is what he is providing me. Of course, he is Aquarian.

Whereas I recently had a friendship ended out of lack of integrity. I gave the situation to Spirit to tend to… I don’t need the stress or her fear. I wish her well with the karma she has created. I released her…

Next of the shifting changes is the Universe doing it again to me. Tell me…stop talking and go, do it. We are taking the distraction away from you so you have to. Ha. Overall, I know the blessings in all of this. A moment panic was all I had. I understand the beauty of the technique of the Universe. They give me what I ask for…not always the best way for me…yet I know it is a good kick in the ass that is well deserved and getting me moving in a better direction for my whole true self.

So I am meditating more to see what the Universe tells me the direction to go. I am getting some ideas and this is why this blog today. Halloween. Hallow eve. Day of the Dead. Letting go of the dead stuff that doesn’t work well. Focus on what does. Focus on your strengths. Speaking My Truth is one of mine in my view. So writing this blog today is doing that. Showing the gratitude and appreciation for the lessons happening now and the space it is pushing me out of… I understand the implication of these lessons. Duh…how can I not?

So with November beginning and the energies of Scorpio upon us…Death and Rebirth. Timing is perfect of this new beginning of getting on the track I am meant to be on. I am being more careful on my wording these days now. So how are you doing these days? It has been far too long a delay in conversation, hasn’t it? Ha. Peace~ Jen

New Moon and New Beginning with the beginning of August

Today is a new beginning for me… and my website, AngelsIntuition.com. I originally started this website in 2001 with the end of my 19 year marriage and a new start in a career and life. After having a spiritual awakening, things began to unfold for me in a totally new direction and now… the cycle starts again.

On this day of a total solar eclipse/new moon in Leo, I am re launching this spiritual insight site with all that I have learned over the years. Much has been experienced and explored during the last seven years. I look back and still have some of the things I am dealing with as I did then… yet overall, I am so blessed and appreciating my journey I am traveling. Along with some special friends I have meet on this path of discovery… some physical and some not… the spiritual realm’s support is ever present and I am grateful for the laughter they have added to the times of deep understanding with resisting of the obvious and getting in my own way. I am seeing how much I have traveled, growing and expanding my heart and my mind… It is amazing daze.

So now I am sharing my adventures on a new site with the friends that helped make it so extra special. I am able and will be add content more consistently which is something I wasn’t able to in the last site. So beautiful… like art… not as functional as I really needed it to be.

On the new site, I am using a photo of a sunset that I took with the nearby fire burning and adding to the atmosphere… the mist of mystery. Pink was natural lighting at this time and with pink the energy of love… it seemed very much the right photo to use. The information is all slowly coming together in adding to the wealth of wisdom and knowledge I have learned during the last seven years. I again want to invite you to check it out and breathe in a different understanding of the illusion and reality we live in now. Thank you for reading. If you got any comments about the site… any suggestions… let me know.

Peace and hugs~ Jen

Today is a new beginning for me… and my website, AngelsIntuiton.com. I originally started this website in 2001 with the end of my 19 year marriage and a new start in a career and life. After having a spiritual awakening, things began to unfold for me in a totally new direction and now… the cycle starts again.

On this day of a total solar eclipse/new moon in Leo, I am re launching this spiritual insight site with all that I have learned over the years. Much has been experienced and explored during the last seven years. I look back and still have some of the things I am dealing with as I did then… yet overall, I am so blessed and appreciating my journey I am traveling. Along with some special friends I have meet on this path of discovery… some physical and some not… the spiritual realm’s support is ever present and I am grateful for the laughter they have added to the times of deep understanding with resisting of the obvious and getting in my own way. I am seeing how much I have traveled, growing and expanding my heart and my mind… It is amazing daze.

So now I am sharing my adventures on a new site with the friends that helped make it so extra special. I am able and will be add content more consistently which is something I wasn’t able to in the last site. So beautiful… like art… not as functional as I really needed it to be.

On the new site, I am using a photo of a sunset that I took with the nearby fire burning and adding to the atmosphere… the mist of mystery. Pink was natural lighting at this time and with pink the energy of love… it seemed very much the right photo to use. The information is all slowly coming together in adding to the wealth of wisdom and knowledge I have learned during the last seven years. I again want to invite you to check it out and breathe in a different understanding of the illusion and reality we live in now. Thank you for reading. If you got any comments about the site… any suggestions… let me know.

Peace and hugs~ Jen

The one thing I have said to many of the clients is that energetically the other is picking up on your anger, bitterness, confusion or your joy, happiness and peace of mind. Which do you want them to get? It is up to you. Lessons are some times a bitch to relearn or be reminded of when things are changing. I can only speak in loving terms now, if I speak. No more questions or concern. Total trust and faith in the unfolding of this relationship into the trusting, honest, faithful, balance supportive relationship I am creating. He feels all the love I have, yet also the freedom to be whom and what he is; to achieve his dreams and wishes with good wills and a hug.

Inspirational Divine. In the last few months, years really… I have been inspired to write my experiences down. A healing process I now find. I have grown and released many of the inner demons of anger, greedy, selfishness, jealousy, envy, and the list can continue on. “I have done the work” as they say.

Yet, I still question my motivations and those of others. I have learned to have a strong sense of discernment that can be mistrust in people, things and situations. Maybe too strong at times. Not feeling the love…you know what I mean? It doesn’t make inspiration come bubbling up the pike towards me.

This morning, my inner being ness/higher self asked what is my pleasure these days. It seems so fitting with the full moon in Scorpio… which is all about pleasure, sex and trust. I lay in bed, pondering what I desired to experience now? Good question. Though the process, I have found myself surrendering most of my dreams away or to a different form. I found myself now…dreamless. For a person who lives in creativity and self expression, this is not a good thing. Yet in the same breath, to think I have experienced most of the things I set out to do… wow…that is really cool. A clean slate of inspiration, creation and a new beginning.

I find myself like many spiritual persons, looking to see what is next for them and with the hard work done; wondering is this when I get to have some “real” fun, real abundance, and the real big one here and the main reason for being on this planet…Love? Well… I am ready and waiting. I am up for having some good times, yet I had some great times in the years on this planet. I have had some real up and down times…seeing the light and blessings in each one…especially those real down times.

One of the parts of me, probably my soul… wishes for me to write out those times. Oh and also my past lives that have come to visit me again… cleaning up some really bad stuff in my energy field. My soul loves to express itself through the written word. Another part of me is wondering… are you that starved for attention… for someone to listen and hear what you have to say? Please… well, maybe to write it down is healing that part of me. I have done lots of writing and the thought of organizing it for a book is a bit over whelming for me at this point… I got thousands of pages to organize…and when you are in that space of writing for clearing, releasing and healing… organizing it for a book…isn’t top priority for me. That damn Virgo moon of mine has let me down again. Ha. Now that Sage part of me… she is all for the healing and looking within. Looking for that higher truth and trust in the Universe at large… then comes my ascending sign…Aries, looking to be the first on the block for this insight or that creative method, plan or scheme. Larger than life attitude…though humbly presence in the now. It is an interesting combination… lots of fire and the earth to keep me from floating away… and my experiences have been the same. Lots of dreams that got the balloon popped. Did make me wonder what is the purpose here? Hindering my progress or did it? I have been reflecting a lot of what I was before the “reawakening” and who I am now. That person before got things done with more organization and thought… she really focused on her goals. Not so much now and that concerns me. I do wonder what happen to change this part of me…that Aries action personality that was good to have. She shows up once and a while and doesn’t seem to stay for long. I am inviting her to stay longer so I am not leaping and jumping from one project to another and not getting much of anything done… that part of me I desire to return to me now. That scattered part of me… though beautiful in some ways… is not longer required at the juncture in my life. I desire that drive I once had…she still dwells inside of me… yes; she was driven away by another part of my ego. Yet you would think that was my ego, though I don’t think so. I am simply realigning myself to the very best part of me. That push that got me places that I truly desired and choose to be. It feels like it got sucked out of me somewhere, sometime… or maybe little by little, experience by experience…slowly letting the air out of my balloon… that part of my ego that isn’t all that bad to have. Sigh. I feel the shift within now. I am more proactive now. Becoming that part of me that lives. Achieves and seeing the results of the process at hand. Maybe I needed to stop that part of me to appreciate its essence. Okay… I do. Please breathe in life in me again. Being still is tiring me out…out of boredom. I got lots of fire energy here… Hello… are you listening in there? Hmmm… I am not listening to myself…so why in the hell would I think anyone else would be listening to me? Ha. That out of integrity again…with myself. I am not going to beat myself up over this…again. It happens and it is going to happen…not. I am so done with this.

The other night, I received a new contract in a dream or maybe a real old one needed to be completed. It was a pretty thick contract, small print of course… I am asking for the details… that Virgo part is alive and kicking’… yea baby. I have yet to see inside the envelope. I know of one person who is apart of this contract… or this new agreement or old. He said he had made me wait far too long and apologized for that. That unconditional love pops in mind here. I asked him for the details and again, he goes silence and turns his back to me…only to turn back to say… I will tell you in person soon. I can’t have you waiting anymore for this. I just can’t. Well, I am still waiting for this miracle to happen and it will. These lucid dreams happen for me. Timing? I have no idea; though he did say he can’t have me waiting any more… it has been too long now. This is truly one of the last things I know I desire to experience. After this miracle… I will feel free. Truly free. To be released from the past and the future… only in that present moment of time. And even though I do feel in the presence moment, the mind is one of humanity, wondering into the endless possibilities and now it is time to choose my next grand adventure…

Blessings happen every moment of everyday. Unless you sit still, presence in the moment, can one truly understand the blessings of that moment… that blessing is lost to the memory of your mind and your past.

I recently went back to my hometown, or around it. Each time I go to LA, my energies shift and I hold back as if protecting myself from something or someone. I really noticed this time as I drove through the city, feeling sick to my stomach while going through some parts. Other parts, I felt fine. I looked around and saw things within the energies of the city… things to come and the lost of its innocence. I was born in LA and left when I was 11 years old. I have gone back many times to visit friends, attend meetings, concerts and be in that home space.

My hometown is Canoga Park, though like much of LA… things change and the part of LA I am from has been renamed to West Hills. It fits with the hospital I was born, down the street from my childhood house, was West Hills Hospital… It is also gone, like me.

My childhood was a mixed bag of memories. Some very real, others seem dream-like… or is it that the dream are the real ones? I was a bit of a loner, even in a crowd. Yea, I sure you know someone like that. Just didn’t quite fit in or seem like they belong where they are… yet we do and are here for that very reason. To belong and feel what we haven’t been able to feel before… emotions.

Connecting with my emotions this trip was an intense experience. I looked over the city from the Getty Museum (worth the trip to go there) and saw life… humanity through the haze of the overcast day. That is LA though… hazy, expansive and layered. So much unknown, much like life, yet available all to experience.

There is a different energy in Los Angeles… City of Angels. So many angels trapped beneath the scene…exposed yet silence in the depth of the presence of the color of life mingling through the streets and hearts of each person, place and things. The creation, seen on film, television… heard and felt in the vibration of music… hmmm… I reflect on the fact… that energy… that I am part of the creative process and I detached from its beauty… seeing the ugly darkness and heartbreaking essence that is seen and remain in the limelight.

They say the “heyday of Hollywood” is long gone. It is still present and accounted for each day on Sunset Blvd… on Wilshire… in the Hollywood Hills… you can hear the silence murmur that beauty in the moaning of the engines purring on the streets, on the freeways and by ways of the valley. It breathes creation…the beauty hidden beneath the larger than life attitudes.

I feel different in LA. My heart beats a different energy and the creative process began there, only to have me return to the southwest of Arizona to complete the processing of the journey.

I see changes for the City of Angels…and for myself. Presence and essence remain, silently waiting on the wings. I have changed since this trip. I came home to find a snake in my garage. My precious dog, Josie…pointed it out to me…to make sure I did see it. A baby snake transitioning before my eyes. The creative process…it lives and begins at home. Thank you LA… for a wonderful visit to my home base and soul. Your blessings are appreciated.

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